Well..its official..theres no turning back on the decisions...life might be cruel...but...as long as we're alive...ill continue to regret...ill miss you guys as much as fuck...ESPICALLY THE BOY WHO I LOVED..YOU MADE ME SMILE...i might not know you well..i think when you read this,you'll know..either way..im still going to tell the truth...I LOVED YOU SINCE THAN...The first time we met...i felt like magic was under me...i looke so stupid...my top was hideous!,haha,we met at mediacorp...talking about how cheesy the sperms looked like,you said your butt hurt..i said mine too...but you said i was already well covered...that time..i asked...''wanna go for dinner?''...you said,''nahh,im gonna watch myself or something here''...so..i longed to see you again...than..one dayy..fiona tu..(YOU ROCK!)...called me..asked..are you going to go to see ben?...hes gonna perform for teenage icon..i might go...you wanna go?...i said...hmm...sure....than you said...i cant make it...im to lazy..so...i went on confidently..cause my blood was filled with love droned cells..that were with adredaline...i met you...i met candice...i saw your face...i could have melted..but...stayed soild...we went to some staircase...to practise you singing...ok...ill tell the truth...it wasnt really that good...but seeing you that hopless..i couldnt ''not'' let you fail....so...i let you sing..than....when you were up there...i was cheering..hoping..maybe...a kiss would fly out of your lips...than..after the competition ended...you yourself knew you wouldnt make it...but i knew if you kept thinking like that..you will lose...so...after that...we all went to cinelesure...you,me,brenda,melvin,freddy and melvin's other friends...we first went to the foodcourt..but...no one really wanted to eat there...bren bren and Melvin were playing with sunglasses...''OHHH PLEASE...IM SO JEALOUS!..XD''..than we all decided to eat separate...few of us at bugerking..some of us at some other place...me,you,brenda,melvin and freddy...we going to eat..but than..freddy had to go...so...it was just ''THE THREE LITTLE ANTS AND ONE BIG ANT EATER!''...we were eating,talking,just as i thought it would go as...than...a photo opp!...OMG!..jack came along,brenda has a *TOOT* on him...oh dear brenda... haha..took a photo or few more or so...than..we took silly pictures...haha...great times ill never forget...than..before we went home..we camwhored MORE!..haha..yes..i love camwhoring!...than a family photo...i took a photo of bren bren and melvie...looks like sweets...*AHHHH...the wind is so cold..sorry..interupted*...than..it was time to go home...i took a cab home..you took a cab home..haha..i texted you..you texted me..haha..goodnights,hugs and kisses or something!..so..my heart was in the middle of a dance...when..i realised,your right behind me...in the back cab..haha..i was so entertained...haha.. that we met up again..OH YOU!..you left your pouch with me..i forgot to give it back..oh well..anyways..than we met up again at novena mrt...so i could give you your pouch...oops..the key was at home..i think...than..me all alone...went to watch a movie...alll alllonee....*SIGHHH*than you rang..said..lets watch a movie...i was so happy..but by the time you came..all the tickets were sold out...so..sorry...so..i went to watch ''THE MUMMY 3''...it was a great film..haha..but by the time i was out...you were gone..i was..well..upset..but i didnt mind....haha..but...as the days went on...i longed to see and hug you one more time...but we didnt meet..and..my heart ached more..well..the words...i wishto say now is...''I USED TO LOVE YOU''....but a part of me still says....''I STILL LOVE YOU''...
Tribute to:Benjamin Khoh
Love,
Gerda AKA Ms Morphine
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