No child,its just another dream catcher,not the the dream-er himself

Venting out my frustration in good fashion,i mean,yeah,i loveeee the shops here and stuff,but,i cant find the perfect leather jacket,i want the leather jacket to be like K.O.'s one in her ''Zero'' music vid,i mean,the mean kickass pmc leather motorcycle one,not all the studs,although that would be kool!...haha..lol...80's swagger in my hand,I SAW A BUNCH OF PEOPLE IN THE 80'S GAG,''Austin Powers:The Spy Who Shagged Me.''lol,so funny,but yeah,im so upset,i dunno my ''LEATHERJACKET'' size,they sae it diff compare to normal size charts,lol,so MARPHAN!fuck it....!

Love,

Ms Lily Neko Morphine(origii name)

dumb moments and angus stages

dumb ass family sia,sometimes,its soo damn hard,fuck ue lah sis,ue think wat,motherfucker,ue dun know no dumb shit bout me,so dont anyhw judge judge ok,fuck off lah....gosh...cant ue leave ppl as they r,if i want help,i would ask,not fucking budge into other ppl's personal lives fucking bitch..

MEXICAN MOVIES ARE ONE THING

P.S.:that guy in the second one is andrew vanwyngarden...hes from mgmt!..myh fave band

Ok...so...recently..i watched this movie called american physco 2...gahh...its sorta scary...fulled with blood and stuff...I LOVED IT!...the girl is soo spretty...awesome eyebrows..lol!....haha...anywaes...then i watched nacotina..awesome movie too..the guy in the leather jack is soo cute!...SEXBOD!...*SHWINK!*...lol...recreation of waynes shwink!...lol..hahaa...then...the ISSUE....GUYs!..ahha..ue no wat..recently...i've been wakinkk up at three in the after noon...i no i sleep around like......geerrrrrr.....4-7 or 8 am...hahaha...i no...but ue no what...he has daylight savings and studd...nd when its 4,its lik singpore 6...so...here the 5 o'clock is over there the 8 or 9..fuck...but yae...haha...DIFFF COLOUR!...*WOOP!*...sooo yae..nd..recently....i got an awesome,unexpected present from my mum!.....A FUCKING AWESOME MAC BOOK!...yae..im using it now..hahaha..glalgalgsljbaodcsdvsavjkn...SPAZZ ATTACK!...*weirdo*i post a few pics up lata...oh...btw...im in nz,auckland.....bluahhhy....suckk....but the best part about it is....its sorta squrad.....(myh own version of awesome or rad or cool)hahaha....OH!...GUYS!..CHECK OUT THIS GIRL!...shes only 16...and is an awesome photographer.!.....i love her work...ue gotta check this out.....LINK!:http://nirrimiphotography.carbonmade.com/projects/2301830#6

ok..so..yae..be sure to go to heree amazing website!..hahaha....IM GUNA START A WEBSITE.DO A MAKEUP VID ON YOUTUBE!!...hahaa...so yae...guys.....i lovee ue all....plus...i changedd loaddsss since....LAST 2 YEARS AGO!....HAHA...if ue dont belive....go to myh url,and this page too,http://xiiaobllackkie.buzznet.com

LAWL!..haha...bye lovedoveys..love ue!...muakkeisz!!!!

Love,

Ms Lily Neko Morphine Vampire(other nicknames are on te below posts!)

hahaha..

Well...im bak in singapore!!!!!..yay!..hahaa...i always though it would remain the same..guess not..haha...ok...updatsss.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...dotssss.........OH!...1.IM IN A BAND CALLED THE SHINY ADDICTS...2.IM LEARING FRENCH..WHICH IS ONE OF THE MOST ROMANTIC LANGUAGES...(easy too!)...3.AND I BROKE MY LEG THERE IN THE FIRST TWO WEEKS WHILE I LIVED IN OUR RENTED STUPID HOUSE!CURSSSSSEEEEE YOUUUUU SLOPES AND GRAVIIIITYY!!!!!!!!....hahahaha...ok...so...now ue no wat happens to uer AVERAGE WEIRD LITTLE 13 YEAR-OLD GIRL GONE ON TO NZ TO FIND aDvEnTuRe!......hahaha...well...i gottaa goo guyss!..LUVV YAE!

Love,

Miss Lily Neko Morphine or Marjuana Girl!

Who said being dramatic needs composure

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRHGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!IM LEAVINGGGGGGGG!!!!!!...tomorrow...........IM GUNNAA MIS MY BITCHES AND SLUT AND WHORE AND BASTARDS AND DRAGS AND GAYS AND....................ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE IT WHEN ITS JUST THE BEST PART OF MY LIFE!...im gunna miss ue guys so much...ue all made me the person,the HAAPPY-GO-LUCKY-DRAG THAT I AM TODAE!awwww...each single one of ue made me realise the colours i had inside of me...aww...espescially,XING CHEN!haha...she made me the gay i am todae!hehee.....than theres my girl...FEE!..babe...at this age..all we youngsters were suppose to be cluless to this awful world..but...my eyes really opened up...theres more to life that drama and explosions...even in the shitest situations...i found out that..we can always forgive and forget..or forgive and regret..or...forget and fuck off!..haha...yesterdae was the MOTHERRRRRRRRF***!haha in a good way...its started out at the skatepark....ended wif the skatepark...haha..haha.....AICCCHIIIT!...ue sick bastard!..haha...uer awesome...i think the best word to describe you is ''maray marape!''hahaha...aww..im gunaa miss ue guys..i know that a guy called FEY was there..then nadia then her boyfriend..i think..aslam or something....haha...the day at east coast park..haha..so much drama..haha...and puking!..BEST CNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....after that dae..there came when we had to sleep..but i couldnt...soo...i slept in the bus..for awhile anywaes...than....we stoped near aichits area...than i walked stright to my bus stop...hahaha...i had to pee so bad..than i went to clark quay...to pee..haha....after that..i went to the riverside....i just felt so....RELAXED...CALM...I FELT THE ESSENCE OF SINGAPORE DISSLOVING INTO ME....i knw..its sounds weird...haha..but its so true..its was lik..7,8 am in the morning...a beautiful morning..i drew the river..i smelt the air...and...there...right there..i made i bound with my home country...that essence will always be in me...ALWAYS SINGAPOREN..aww...ill miss ue guys...so much..sorrwee if i didnt put uer name or event here babes nd dudes!...haha..

LOVE YOU ALWAYS!,

Ms Morphine

AHH!..yess..ILL CONFESS!

Ok..so...er...yess...the rumours are true..IM LEAVING SINGAPORE!!!!!....

*SOOOOOOBBBSZXZ!!!!!!!*

ILL MISS YOU GUYS..IL TEXT YOU GUYS FROM OVERSEAS...

K?

AWW..

YOU GUYS MADE THE BEST OUT OF

THIS USELESS SOUL...

AWW

YOU GUYS MADE ME..:

RED!

GREY...

TANMARIED..?

LIGHT ORANGE!

FRESH LIKE CUTE GRASS:GREEN

GAY!XD

(theres a diff in colour,this one's lighter!)WAYY FISHHY

LOST.

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FREEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ill miss you guys alot..ill come back to singapore once in awhile

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YOU BETTER HAVE PRESENTS READY!

haha

XD!

ill be moving to New Zealand!

Auckland

Mt Roskill

awww

I CANT THANK,MISS AND LOVE YOU GUYS ENOUGH

I WISH I HAD MY LIFE WITH YOU GUYS!

Love,

Ms Lily Neko Morphine

aka

GERDA!

Boy...ive wasted,cried and stood behind a wall...just to sound ok

Well..its official..theres no turning back on the decisions...life might be cruel...but...as long as we're alive...ill continue to regret...ill miss you guys as much as fuck...ESPICALLY THE BOY WHO I LOVED..YOU MADE ME SMILE...i might not know you well..i think when you read this,you'll know..either way..im still going to tell the truth...I LOVED YOU SINCE THAN...The first time we met...i felt like magic was under me...i looke so stupid...my top was hideous!,haha,we met at mediacorp...talking about how cheesy the sperms looked like,you said your butt hurt..i said mine too...but you said i was already well covered...that time..i asked...''wanna go for dinner?''...you said,''nahh,im gonna watch myself or something here''...so..i longed to see you again...than..one dayy..fiona tu..(YOU ROCK!)...called me..asked..are you going to go to see ben?...hes gonna perform for teenage icon..i might go...you wanna go?...i said...hmm...sure....than you said...i cant make it...im to lazy..so...i went on confidently..cause my blood was filled with love droned cells..that were with adredaline...i met you...i met candice...i saw your face...i could have melted..but...stayed soild...we went to some staircase...to practise you singing...ok...ill tell the truth...it wasnt really that good...but seeing you that hopless..i couldnt ''not'' let you fail....so...i let you sing..than....when you were up there...i was cheering..hoping..maybe...a kiss would fly out of your lips...than..after the competition ended...you yourself knew you wouldnt make it...but i knew if you kept thinking like that..you will lose...so...after that...we all went to cinelesure...you,me,brenda,melvin,freddy and melvin's other friends...we first went to the foodcourt..but...no one really wanted to eat there...bren bren and Melvin were playing with sunglasses...''OHHH PLEASE...IM SO JEALOUS!..XD''..than we all decided to eat separate...few of us at bugerking..some of us at some other place...me,you,brenda,melvin and freddy...we going to eat..but than..freddy had to go...so...it was just ''THE THREE LITTLE ANTS AND ONE BIG ANT EATER!''...we were eating,talking,just as i thought it would go as...than...a photo opp!...OMG!..jack came along,brenda has a *TOOT* on him...oh dear brenda... haha..took a photo or few more or so...than..we took silly pictures...haha...great times ill never forget...than..before we went home..we camwhored MORE!..haha..yes..i love camwhoring!...than a family photo...i took a photo of bren bren and melvie...looks like sweets...*AHHHH...the wind is so cold..sorry..interupted*...than..it was time to go home...i took a cab home..you took a cab home..haha..i texted you..you texted me..haha..goodnights,hugs and kisses or something!..so..my heart was in the middle of a dance...when..i realised,your right behind me...in the back cab..haha..i was so entertained...haha.. that we met up again..OH YOU!..you left your pouch with me..i forgot to give it back..oh well..anyways..than we met up again at novena mrt...so i could give you your pouch...oops..the key was at home..i think...than..me all alone...went to watch a movie...alll alllonee....*SIGHHH*than you rang..said..lets watch a movie...i was so happy..but by the time you came..all the tickets were sold out...so..sorry...so..i went to watch ''THE MUMMY 3''...it was a great film..haha..but by the time i was out...you were gone..i was..well..upset..but i didnt mind....haha..but...as the days went on...i longed to see and hug you one more time...but we didnt meet..and..my heart ached more..well..the words...i wishto say now is...''I USED TO LOVE YOU''....but a part of me still says....''I STILL LOVE YOU''...

Tribute to:Benjamin Khoh

Love,

Gerda AKA Ms Morphine